The subject of “Rebirth” has come up a lot lately in my environment. More specifically, I took the queue from Senses Fail’s latest album “Renacer.” It is one of those albums that displays a complete turnaround for their music and the welfare of their band. The music is electric. The message is clear, staggering: Rebirth.
Who doesn’t want a do-over? A fresh beginning? To undo choices that have been governing them for years. It’s something that everyone can relate to.
I’ve been finding ways to make my life emulate this message. That drive. It can either be some edgy blog post I decided to craft. It could be a new acting choice I’ve made on stage to destroy my comfort zone. Hell, it could be me trying harder at work. Rebirth to me is the opportunity to incorporate new parts of yourself that you’ve kept buried to avoid disappointing others. In the mean time, you’ve betrayed yourself to the core.
In the opening track of Senses Fail’s new album, which shares the album title, Buddy Nielson screams like a medieval beast, “When you look in the mirror, do you like what you see?” Of course, every one has demons. Every person has at least one thing they don’t like about themselves. But, out of all of those people, who is willing to do what they need to change it? Who has the balls? The wherewithal? May the bravest man step forward? It takes a true warrior to win this type of battle.
At the same time, allowing other people to drive your life in the directions you are not willing to go is nothing but toxic. This toxicity grows to resentment. That resentment grows to hatred. Star Wars reference unintended.
No one deserves a fate such as this. No one.
Thomas William Shaw is an author and stage actor from Birmingham, AL. He lives with his wife, Lauren, their children, and their cats in a quiet place. Occasionally he will post about it.